Monthly Archive: January, 2018

A Love that changes… Everything

A friend asked me last night if I was doing ok, was I feeling better. My response, “No, I’m not ok, I won’t be ok until he comes home.” Why on earth do… Continue reading

The Heart Shatters, it Breaks & Bleeds

The heart breaks, it shatters, it falls to the floor in a bloody mess. We open ourselves to love, knowing full well we will suffer for it. The promise of something great, something… Continue reading

Remove that Shit

Over the years, I have learned that writing eases my pain. Catharsis. This most recent event, heartbreak, has made me rethink everything I’ve ever published. I’ve loved others before, I’m human and I’ve… Continue reading

Stop Torturing Yourself

My friends keep telling me to stop torturing myself, to find something to get my mind off of him. I can’t. I don’t want him off of my mind. I want him there,… Continue reading

He was Gone – A Nightmare becomes Reality

We know that our dreams mean something, most of us do, I always have. It wasn’t until today that I remembered a dream that I had several years ago. One that left me… Continue reading

Depression & Karma

Depression. Yes, it’s depression along with an unhealthy dose of fear. I haven’t changed clothes in three days, haven’t showered, I’ve barely eaten. I’ve stayed by my phone, I’ve jumped up every time… Continue reading

Random Thoughts on Privacy

I don’t understand how the mind works sometimes. I write to maintain my sanity, right now being a particularly important part of maintaining that sanity. One thing that crossed my mind today, and… Continue reading

He is the cure.

Why is a broken heart so painful? What makes it physically hurt. The devastation, the emptiness, the darkness that creeps in and swarms us like thousands of bees. A love so perfect that… Continue reading

Grief

Grief. Pain. Loss. Those words are full of darkness and despair. All three of them coursing through my heart, body, and soul. One bad decision on top of another bad decision. I love… Continue reading