Fall – in December

If I spend much more time with him, I am going to fall in love with him. I can feel it in my soul already. I haven’t let anyone close in such a long time. This wasn’t supposed to happen. I wasn’t supposed to enjoy his company so much. I’ve been drifting off to daydreams of laughing with him, kissing him, feeling his hands on me.

What am I to do? I want to fight it, I want to close off my heart, but I also want to let him in. God, that smile and those eyes. I could lose myself in those eyes and kiss that smile for all of my days. I feel like I am standing on the edge of the world or the top cliff of the mountain. I’d be safe to step back, but damn I want to jump and let him catch me.